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When the Going Gets Tough…

Writing is hard.

I’ve spent two weeks filling a notebook with ideas and then sitting down at my computer only to get back up again because I just didn’t feel ready; my headspace wasn’t where it needed to be.

A lot of people, upon asking what I do for a living, say things like, “Oh, that must be fun!” or, “I’ve always wanted to do that!” and I kind of sit back and say to myself, ‘You know, it is fun, but it’s a damn challenge, too.’

I try to ignore the comments because I feel they sort of discredit what I’ve set out to accomplish. Yes, anyone can write, but I get a bit sensitive when someone mentions writing like a bucket list item. That’s my deal though, and I’m trying not to let it get to me as much, especially since a lot of those people aren’t intending to come across the way I take it.

But sometimes it truly is hard to get around those comments because writing is so hard. You can literally sit and pour hours into a piece only to hit the delete button because it just wasn’t coming together and no amount of editing could save it, pour your heart out onto a page only to question whether anyone will care about what you’re trying to say, and pour your soul into something that you might never see a return on but know that you need to finish it anyway.

On top of the time spent and the amount of yourself you pour into your work, you also have to believe it’s worthwhile. You have to have some semblance of faith in your decision to take this art and craft it into a tangible career prospect because without that faith, it becomes hard to keep pushing.

Because writing is hard.

It’s long hours and not-long-enough days, deadlines and self-discipline, procrastination and stress. It’s research and fact-checking, editing and revising, criticism and constructive feedback. It’s hard work, dedication, rejection, and perseverance. And it takes heart and soul.

Writing is hard because every word you put on a piece of paper or type into a processor is a part of who you are, and I know that for me, I want every word I publish to the world to be composed the right way. I want it to provide the correct and most authentic message, present my genuine voice, and share my ideas in a way I can be proud of.

My greatest fear as a writer is that I’ll embarrass myself somehow or damage my own credibility, or even force something to the point that it no longer reflects who I am. The amount of work that goes into this craft far surpasses simply putting words to a page and is the reason I respect anyone who sets out to make a career out of it.

Despite the drawbacks and seemingly negative aspects, I wouldn’t change my decision to shape my career around writing. It has given me so much more than I could imagine with any other pursuit and at the end of the day, it is my greatest strength and the one thing I know I can make a difference with.

I am definitely not the greatest, nor will I ever come close, but I do hope that I can make an impact in at least one person’s life with what I have to say. And that hope is what helps to keep me going, along with my faith and the fact that I’m not really living unless I’m creating art with my words. It’s how I make sense of the world around me and understand myself in relation to the world, and without it, I would be absolutely lost.

It’s hard, but so worth it.

11 thoughts on “When the Going Gets Tough…”

  1. I feel you! I really appreciate reading posts like this, when someone opens up and speaks passionately and honestly about real life, the way real people go through it. And of course as a writer I can relate. I’m still sitting here with my blog ‘in construction’, writing notes and drafts and scribbles, and trying to get to the point where I’m ready to finally publish and put myself out there. I’ve put some things in motion by joining networking groups, online communities, etc., and now I have a few invitations to do my first ever presentations/group workshops on mindfulness and personal growth, next month. It’s stressful and often so hard to get things to happen the way I’d like them to. And at the same time, yes, I am doing what I’ve always wanted to, and of course I can understand people who work full-time jobs thinking that I’ve got it easy and my life must be ‘fun’. Fortunately I don’t have too many conversations with people who say things like that, lol! They’re all too busy at work to be spending time with me. 😛

    Hope things are going well for you Amanda, and thanks for a lovely post – it was nice to see you come up in my feed. 🙂

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  2. I’m a writer too, and I know this feeling. You are so right, writing is super hard, but not impossible. We get a feeling of excitement when we write, but disappointment when is not appreciated. Seconding, what Danielle Steele mentioned “There’s writing for everyone, and not everyone will like our writing. ” Love your blog my dear friend. I will surely be following you. 💕

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  3. After reading this, I feel kind of bad. I have a blog, but I don’t really consider myself a ‘writer’ and I never give myself a hard time about my ‘writing’. Maybe I should. One thing I can relate to is needing to be in the right zone/headspace.

    Your passion really comes across. The fact that you care so much is a GREAT thing!

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    1. Aw, don’t feel bad! I think that it’s okay to blog and not really consider yourself a writer per se, especially if your passion is in a different or more targeted area, like weddings. My passion is writing — blog articles, novels, screenplays, etc — so that is where my focus is. If I was more interested in something else but still wanted to use blogging as my platform for sharing, I think I’d consider myself less of a writer as well. I think it just depends on our “why” at the end of the day. And thank you for the compliment, I truly appreciate it! ❤

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  4. I just love this! I feel the same way about wanting my writing that’s shared with the world to be just right. I have a difficult time hitting publish on every post because of that. But I know that writing is how I also make sense of my thoughts and the world. Thank you for sharing!

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