My characters aren’t talking to me…
I’ve hit a creative wall with Dreamweaver. The pivot point I experienced with my plot a few weeks ago, which was awesome when it occurred, completely paralyzed my progress.
I started to second guess myself and wasn’t feeling confident at all. I was wildly unsure of where the story was going and I was so worried that I had gone in the wrong direction…
…and they stopped talking.
…which means no progress, and my nerves are shot.
Throughout the process, I’ve felt like I was actually writing what could be two separate stories, and I think this plays into my concern quite a bit.
Another part of me, though, that little voice that says, “Hey, stop questioning things and just write!” has been pushing me to believe in the story, move forward, and see what happens.
I’m in this horrible cycle of optimism, panic, and doubt, and it stinks!
What if I push forward and it seems forced?
Do I write in the other direction instead and see if it helps?
Do I lay it all out and organize what I have to better see the places where these “two” stories are running into one another?
Or do I just push down all of these negative connotations and accept that at some point, these seemingly separate pieces will come together?
I think a large part of this is also my hesitation to make progress. I want to sit down and write, but I get so caught up in wanting to make sure I’m doing it “right” and it just increases the uncertainty. I want this story to be written so perfectly that I get in my own way. I would hate to write it, publish it, and think, “Damn, I should have done _______ differently.”
Like I said, it’s a horrible cycle — one I’m sure many other writers can understand.
And I think all of these conflicting feelings within me are what has caused my characters to fall silent. I used to walk around with them chatting up a storm in my head, creating scenes, and words would flow across the page when I sat down to type them out.
Now, it’s crickets.
I did find a helpful post on a blog called Out Loud titled What to Do When Your Characters Stop Talking and loved what the author had to say. I fit into her “None of the Above” category which is, you guessed it, self-doubt.
I suppose I have found the answer to my own problem…
I just need to believe in what I’m doing, and trust the process.
Has this happened to you before? What did you do? What would you do? I’d love some feedback, and maybe to know I’m not alone.